so, the engagement proceeds. we've got some basic ideas down, a theoretic date (in the past few days, i've learned the hard way not to set any of this stuff in stone) of April 8, 2006, and our bridesmaids/groomsmen chosen and asked. tomorrow we go check out our most promising location (the japanese gardens at woodward park). ye gods, there's so much to do, so many little details, i have this sinking feeling i'm still going to be arranging things on the phone as she walks down the aisle...

and still no ring. despite constant assurances from kat that this is not a big deal to her, it is to me. tomorrow i canvas all of fresno, clovis, madera, merced, and visalia if i have to to find it, and i'll rip away and sell the soul of any idiot unlucky enough to be within arm's reach if i must. i tend to get like this; once something registers as important through my thick little skull, it will stay lodged, stray-bullet style, until an act of congress forcibly removes it. i'm on a quest...reading too much 8-Bit Theatre...Black Mage shall be my guide in this, as in all other things...

portland in three days...ah, cool weather, here we come. seeing as how i have absolutely no idea whatsoever what to expect once we get there, all i can say is a) thank god for cooler climes, and b) it sounds weird, but i'm actually looking forward to the 10-14 hour drive. sounds fun, eh? stuck in a car for approx. half a day. oddly enough, yeah, it does. i'll be in good company. as far as the trip itself, i'm definitely looking forward to seeing madmal, and from what i've been told by kat and assorted others, it should be a really great time. okay, so i am looking forward to the trip itself after all. this is gonna be so cool...

tuesday was perhaps one of the worst days...well, ever...until i got home. more ring merriment; after some drama about whether or not i would be able to get her the ring she really wanted (first yes, then no, then yes...ugh), i stop by the jeweler's to look at stones, and find out that i haven't been approved for financing. come to find out that, after all that crap i went through last year and the year before to straighten out my credit and financial situation, i shouldn't have been closing all those credit cards and loans that i'd used to so sublimely fuck myself, because now i don't have enough active credit. ever have one of those situations where you start racking your brain, trying every last little idea you can possibly think of to work shit out, and none of it works? yeah, that was tuesday. the financing company wouldn't listen to my begging (or yelling) to approve me, my parents still couldn't be reached to co-sign, nothing was working. finally, i had to give up and admit defeat. i, who can talk my way into and out of anything, had lost.

on top of that, the ungodly, uber-bitch, puppy-kicking boss of my boss, who is in charge of the schedules for everyone at my level had apparently decided that no, i hadn't cleared the dates for our trip to see DMB next month in san francisco. that was only saved by the grace of hauntedfaerie, who agreed to switch shifts with me, under the condition we promise not to get shat upon. we'll try.

there was some other crap on tuesday, but...bleeeaagh...

thankfully, once home, i was assured that the fiasco with the ring was fine, better that it had worked out that way in the long run, and tuesday managed, in the end, to be salvageable after all.

this morning was a long series of beautiful moments, starting with waking up with her fingers in my hair and seeing her eyes first of all things. start a day like that, and i don't care if you end up knee-capped, ham-strung, and curb-checked all at the same time, it's gonna be a good day.

for some reason, every time i looked in the mirror today, i couldn't escape the impression that i look like a frog. definitely odd.

also; i finally managed to sell my extra car today. yes, the nasty will become the property of someone else once and for all. haha, sucker! (okay, the situation doesn't really warrant that, but it's been awhile since i had the opportunity to point and laugh at anyone besides a customer). as of eight tomorrow morning, when i take james the car and he drives me back home, that piece of shit is officially someone else's problem.

tonight was a very good meal of stuffed turkey and a very weird french cartoon called 'the triplets of bellville.' downnote, though; i'm alone at 10:30. but i understand why; i'm rather tired myself.

oh, and i found my glasses. guess you didn't take them after all. but i'm still watching you; you look entirely too shifty for my comfort.

tomorrow's a busy day. wish me luck.

minute-or-so-later edit: please forgive any typos, missing words, non-sensical phrases, etc. i'm waaaaaaaaaay too damned tired to go over this before posting it.

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